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Facing My Fears: A Silent Prayer on Christmas Day

Today I am scared.

Scared that I didn’t do enough. Afraid that I haven’t made the best choices. Scared that I am letting people down. Scared that I said the wrong things or when needed said nothing at all.

Sometimes fear is so strong that I feel paralyzed, unable to move, unable to speak. So, I just sit and breathe. I try telling myself that the feeling will pass, and it will, but it is little consolation because I know it will be back.

I have lived my life fighting fear. Fear of physical harm. Fear of pissing people off. Fear of missing out. Fear of failing, publicly. Fear of what people think of me, particularly my family and friends.

Some days, like today, I feel really vulnerable. I want to think of others first today, especially today — on Christ’s birthday. “What would Jesus do?”, I ask. The problem is that thinking of one person may mean offending someone else, someone I love and care about. What would Jesus do?

God help me to face my fears with great courage and boldness, today and everyday. Help me to put your kindness and love first. Help me to be the best example for the people I love the most.

Written on Christmas morning 2014.

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Written by Shara

December 25, 2014 at 10:33 am

Posted in Holidays, Parenting

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